My Grown Up Christmas List

It's like ages since the last time I made a post here. yikes! With all the parties, reunions and trips in addition to work, family life and love life, making a blog post is definitely not a priority on my to-do list. I even failed to make blog posts every 16th of the month for two months now... Sorry brother! :(

It's already 23rd of December I have not posted anything yet. So for my first (quick) post this month (and hopefully not the last), it'll be about my grown up Christmas list (though I already got my gifts...). :D

Shoes will always be a part of my list (Christmas, birthday, etc). But unlike other girls who want sky-high heels, I'd be content with sneakers or anything comfortable for my feet. My current cravings are Converse All Star Light in any color, Toms preferably red (I have this thing for red footwear but I haven't bought one till now) and espadrilles. In the absence of shoes, bedroom slippers will do. :D

I'm definitely not fond of makeup... but that was before. I'm not quite sure why but I just find myself scouring the cosmetic sections each time I visit the mall. Maybe vanity is hitting me. Lipstick in nude, coral, light pink and plum colors will be highly appreciated.

Overnight or weekend bag
I prefer nature-tripping than going to bars on weekend so I definitely need a sturdy bag that is large enough to fit my entire cabinet... err my stuff that I'll need for a night or two. The one I'm currently using is a bit small for all my things (gotta learn how to pack light).

Skin Care Gift Certificate
I think there is nothing more relaxing than getting a spa or facial for free. Pamper yourself without hurting your pockets! :D

All-expense paid trip to one of the islands or cities here in the Philippines will be greatly appreciated.

I am absolutely not expecting that I'll be getting one of these this Christmas unless I get one for myself. But who knows? Someone with a good heart might come across my blog and send me a pair of red Toms on the 25th. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Davao Trip Day 3 - Farewell, Davao

It's Sunday! Our last day in Davao. We weren't able to explore other sights since our flight back to Iloilo is 6:00 am. By 4:00 am, we already left Aveflor Inn.

Two days of exploring is such a short time. We failed to visit the white sand beaches of Samal, other malls, churches, schools, etc. But though our stay there is short, we really enjoyed the trip. With no more than Php 400 round trip air fare, what more can we ask for? Thanks to Cebu Pacific piso sale. It really made our trip possible without requiring us to spend too much on fare alone. For sure I'll be watching for more seat sale in the days to come. :>

I arrived home tired, sleepy and broke but everything is worth it. I learned a lot, experienced a lot and of course, enjoyed a lot!The memories of this trip will surely be added into my happiness vault since traveling with friends is one of the most fulfilling activities for me. Additionally, it helped me become more responsible and mature person being the trip organizer.

Hopefully next time, I'd be given a chance to travel with my boyfriend... and maybe to travel all by myself - it's my ultimate dream. [-o<

Davao Trip Day 2 - Eden Nature Park

We planned to leave for Eden Nature Park at 8:00 am but the funny thing is, we weren't able to wake up early... it's already past 8:00 when we woke up. Sleepy-heads! At around 10:00 am, we rode a jeepney bound for Toril. We never had trouble when commuting since the inn is accessible by most jeepneys. Travel time to Toril is probably 1 hour, fare is Php 20. We asked the driver to drop us at Mercury Drugstore because that is where motorcycles bound for Toril are parked. From there, we rode a motorcycle (with sidecar) - travel time to Eden Nature Park is around one hour. The driver charged us Php 100 per head. I think Php 100 is not too much considering how far the place is.

On our way, we can't help but be amazed of the panoramas greeting our eyes - huge trees with refreshingly green leaves, different types of houses (including the types showcased at Tribu K'Mindanawan Village), part of Mt. Apo (the tallest mountain in the Philippines) and fruit stands along the road. Additionally, the road all the way from the city proper to Eden Nature Park is concrete. Impressive!

On our way to Eden Nature Park
Indiana Jones Ride
We never thought that he Indiana Jones Ride is just warm-up for more exciting ride later.
This one is perfect for garden weddings.
Overnight accommodations
Towards the mountain trail
Holiday Terraces
The Amphitheater
Hydroponic Vegetable Garden
Never leave the reception area without this... especially if you won't avail the guided shuttle tour.
Rainbow Pass
Don't go home without trying this!
This has turned into a photo blog. :)) Sorry for the lack of details because I'm kinda eager to finish this post. But if somebody would want to ask something, just hit the comment button. I will answer as best as I can. :D

Davao Trip Day 1 - Davao People's Park

The mass has started when we arrived at the Redemptorist Church, the church where our seminarian friend is based. After the mass and other prayer rituals, he suggested that we eat dinner at an eat-all-you-can resto. For Php 99, I feel like my stomach is bursting right after eating shrimps, various chicken, pork and beef dishes and desserts. My simple pleasures! :)

From there, we walked until we reach the People's Park. I'm quite amazed on how the government keeps the park nice and peaceful considering the number of people going there everyday. It's a gated public park wherein anyone who wants to enter will have to go through inspection for any prohibited objects such as weapon and cigarette. Yes, smoking is strictly prohibited inside the park.
Durian-shaped Dome

Davao Trip Day 1 - Davao Crocodile Park Complex

Cebu Pacific flight 5J - 347 landed at Davao Airport 10 minutes earlier than it's expected time of arrival. Even if I and my friend are new to the place, we never had hard time finding our way retrieving our bags because the airport is never crowded since it's an early morning flight - first flight of that sunny Friday.

From the airport, we rode a taxi to Aveflor Inn (located at 108-3 CM Recto, beside Allied bank and Avon). It's a budget-friendly inn ideal to travelers like us who only needs a place to sleep, take a bath and most especially, a place where we can leave our belongings. Luxury accommodation shouldn't be expected but an air-conditioned room with toilet & bath, cable tv (no remote control though) and bed just right for two persons like us, what is there to complain about? There is also a cafeteria within the building so food is not much of a problem. Additionally, the place is located in downtown area so everything is just within our reach - mall, park, restaurants, school, etc.

I originally wanted to spend the whole day roaming around the city but since my friend stayed up all night (working on a night shift), I agreed to spend half of the day at the inn so that she can get at least a couple hours of sleep. While she is sleeping (or trying to be asleep), I grabbed the opportunity to organize my stuff (When I say organize, I mean empty my bag and leave my things where they should be - hang the clothes, the rest - toiletries, phone and camera charger, candies - all sprawling on the bed.

We leave the inn around lunch time to meet our seminarian friend based in Davao. We agreed to meet at Gaisano Mall (popularly known as G-Mall in Davao) since it is just a few minutes ride from the inn. Based on blog posts and reviews, G-Mall is the biggest mall in Davao and indeed, a wide, 5-storey mall welcomed my eyes as soon as we entered the building. It is even larger than SM City and Robinsons Mall here in Iloilo. I would love to scour every boutique in there but that activity is not included on our schedule and my budget :D... I just settled for a tourist map instead. After eating lunch (courtesy of Father Dan), we head to our next destination - Davao Crocodile Park!
Gaisano Mall Davao
From G-Mall, we rode a taxi to the place (taxi fare is only around Php 80). When we get there, I learned that we will not be visiting one park alone. It is actually called Davao Crocodile Park Complex, a village that resembles an exclusive subdivision but instead of houses, a number of parks can be seen there. Near the entrance of the complex is where the Zorb is located. In there, one can get inside a giant transparent ball and experience how it feels like to tumble, to be tossed and turned as the ball moves through the giant slide. I am not sure how much this ride costs for we never get the chance to drop by due to time constraints and besides it's a bit far from the crocodile farm itself.

Entrance to the Crocodile Farm is worth 150 each. This fee also entitles you free entrance to Tribu K'Mindanawan Village and Butterfly House. Our first stop is at the Crocodile Park. But crocodiles are not the only animals seen there - tiger, ostrich, birds, monkeys, snakes and many others can also be found in the area.

Image 1 - Pangil, the oldest crocodile in the farm.
Image 2 - Dragon sailfin. We never thought that it's real because it's not moving.
Image 3 - Hands of an orangutan. It looks like that of a man's sans manicure
Image 4 - Bear cuscus

After we bid good bye to the animals, we proceeded to Tribu K'Mindanawan Village, just a few steps away from the Crocodile Park. Located beside the river, Trubu K'Mindanawan is a cultural village that showcases the lifestyle of locals. One thing I love here are the different types of houses the tribe members used to have.

Uyaanan (Traditional Mansaka House)
Turogan (House of Datu Maranao Tribe)
Too bad I don't have lots of nice pictures of other types of houses. :(

As soon as we're done exploring the village, we headed to Butterfly House, just a few minutes walk from the Crocodile Park. Unfortunately, I had my difficulty-breathing-when-tired attack so I have no choice but to ask my friends that we rest for a while or else I'll pass out. Lame!

The best days to visit the complex are Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays because there are shows during these days. While we’re walking back to Crocodile Park to witness the show, the Waterball Ride area is not crowded anymore and the guys there are encouraging us to try it. It costs Php 50 for 10 minutes. We decided to give it a try since being inside the giant ball looks really exciting. The rule is to try to stand and walk inside the ball but since it is floating in the water, we find it impossible to do it.
Waterball Ride
Crocodile Show: The man is feeding the young crocodiles inside the fenced area.
Crocodile Show. Should he fall, the crocodiles are waiting to eat him.
Fire Dance in front of Tribu K'Mindanawan Village.
Too bad we weren't able to watch the rest of the show because we need to go back to my friend's church to hear the afternoon mass.

Losing and Finding

Many life changing events happened to me since the year started. One and the most heartbreaking is of course the sudden death of my only brother. This tragedy alone taught me a lot of lessons and made me realize many things. Although kind gestures are pouring in, I have proven that not all people whom you thought your friends will gonna be there beside you when you needed them the most. Sometimes, those people whom their sincerity you doubted are the ones who beat the odds just to make you feel better.

I also learned that the death of someone you hold dear is the most painful thing a person may experience. I previously thought that those death/dying or funeral scenes I see on films and televisions are overrated but boy I was wrong! I've been there exactly eight months ago and I realized that nothing can alleviate the pain caused by a person's sudden death. Even those bereaved family's almost hysterical reactions when the coffin is being interred are all true. I've come to the point wherein I want to pull my brother's body out of the coffin, shake him and shout with all my might in the hopes of bringing his life back. Even when I visit his grave, there are times when I want to tear down the concrete tomb, pull him out and bring him home. I never thought that it'll hurt me this much... I never thought that I'd miss him this much. It is indeed true that you'll realize how much a person means to you when he is gone... and it hurts even more if you weren't able to let that person know how much you love him. That is why from that day on; I make it a point to show to those who really matter how much they mean to me. The once rarely mentioned "I love you" often escapes my lips. I am also starting to learn how to manage my time wisely... spending it with what matter to me - faith, family, work, friends and later on love.

Yes, love! While I was busy getting over my brother's death, God is probably equally busy looking or prepping that one special person who'll make me feel special. Although some relationship experts advise not to fall in love when you are still on the healing process, I still chose to let myself love and be loved. And it felt good to have that someone who helps lighten my load when they seem too much for me to endure... a pat in the back, hugs, other simple gestures of kindness or his mere presence can set the mood right and make me believe that everything will be alright. I know we still have a long way to go and I am amiable to the fact that we still have to go through lots of challenges that could either make us or break us. I may not be good at this thing called love since I haven't had serious relationships before this but I believe that as long as we give time, allow each other to grow together and individually and there is respect, understanding and love, there is really nothing to worry about. So far so good and I am thankful that I am blessed with a person that I want as much as I need.

We sometimes lose what we have but there is always a reason for it. We may not know what it is but if we allow our selves to heal, we’ll eventually accept the demise consequently make us notice more beautiful things life could offer.


It's the 16th of the month once more. This time I'm posting about something of great significance to my departed brother's life... something he loved more than any other beverage in the world - the Mountain Dew. If he'll just give in to temptation I swear he can drink more than five bottles a day. Some people even call him Mr. Mountain Dew when he was still alive.

On the day of his burial, we slipped in one can of the said soda inside his coffin along with his other personal belongings (one is the gray handkerchief I gave him :( ) as our "pabaon".

"You've been away for seven months big bro. If only there is a way for me to visit you, I would have done it right then. But apparently, I can only be with you in my dreams so I hope you'll visit me there more often."

photo credit: bobtheking

Six Months and Counting

It's exactly six months ago today since my brother's death. But for me, it was only like yesterday when I cried out loud in the hospital's emergency room. Even the words of my uncle informing me that he's gone are still ringing in my ears.

Six months ago, I was a very lonely and pained soul. I can't talk without crying... I was wishing that everything is just a dream and when I wake up the next day, I'll see my brother sleeping in his bed. But alas! Even if I close my eyes and try to sleep, all I can see is his face while trying to make myself believe that he is forever gone. Those were the days when I think of just crying for the rest of my life.

Six months after... I'm still the pained soul who cries from time to time when the memories remind me of how painful it is to lose someone. But thankfully, I'm no longer a lonely soul. I've found my way back to my old cheery self... thanks to family and friends who show me so much love. I realized that grieving over someone's death is little less painful when family and friends are around to help.

Now if only there is a way for me to find out that he is happy... :D

One Question and An Answer

Just when I'm all set to start doing my task early this morning, a chat message window pops up on my screen all of a sudden - it's from a guy on the workstation far away from mine. :P Knowing him, I thought what he sent me are links to goofy videos or images. But the videos aren't what I thought them to be. They are actually interesting videos that can make you think of what will be your answer when asked with the same question, "where do you wanna wake up tomorrow?"

Fifty People, One Question: London

Fifty People, One Question: Brooklyn

Before watching the videos, I have nothing in mind as to what I wanna see the moment I opened my eyes after a good night's sleep. But after watching and a few hours of contemplating, there is one thing that keeps coming back on my mind - to wake up in a room with wide windows overlooking the sea. As I open the window to let the sunshine in, fresh air come rushing making me feel free and alive. Breakfast should be waiting for me either on the porch or by the seashore. While I wouldn’t mind eating alone, it would be more fun if I'd be sharing it with people close to my heart. Eating breakfast at the beach and spending time with someone you love to talk to is I think one of the most relaxing moments in the world.

So to sum it all up, combination of beach, food and good company... That's what I want!

Thanks to that guy for sharing... :P

Ever the Same

I admit I am not blessed with singing prowess nor you can let me sing in front of others even my friends. I only sing when I'm at home with my family because I'm kinda used to them picking on me when my voice gets croaky. But even if music doesn't like me that much, the way it changes my mood is so amazing. When I'm down or annoyed, listening to Green Day, Matchbox Twenty, Alanis, The Cranberries and other alternative rock artists in full volume can make me feel a bit better.

I can listen to their songs all day everyday - one of the songs is Ever the Same by Rob Thomas. It saved me from insanity more than three years ago and until now, I always turn to it when I feel so alone, helpless and so down. The lyrics hit me straight to the point plus the fact that Rob Thomas is freaking handsome.

We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same

We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Hey, look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same(Ever the same)

4D Puzzle: A Love at First Sight

Today is supposed to be my rest day since I wasn't able to rest yesterday for various reasons. But since this day's activity has been planned a few days ago, I gladly joined my family for some kiddie bonding. After the bump cars adventures, rides, foods and other kiddie activities, we went to Toy Kingdom to look for that remote control helicopter my cousin promised his kid.

While there, I look around hoping that I can find some nice stress balls for myself and my office buddy (a promise I made him ages ago). I was a bit disappointed for not finding a single stress ball in there but then something on the glass display caught my attention - miniature animals and other figures like the toys my nephews are playing. At closer look, the toys are not traditional figurines but are actually 3D puzzle building blocks. One toy is consist of multiple parts to form a figurine. According to their website, the toys are called 4D because they are 3 "D" imensions + "D" etails. They were created around 1998 but I only learned about them just now. :D

I know this type of toy is not only fun but mentally challenging as well. Puzzle in 4D... cool, right? I want to get one but then I promised that I will not use my card on unnecessary purchases so those dragons have to wait.

LipTone is Back!

Don't you just hate it when your favorite product is discontinued or out of stock? That's what I felt when I ran out of LipTone by Blistex. I looked for it everywhere but to no avail... and since I need something to dab on my lips, I have no choice but to try other brands and even other products from Blistex. Unfortunately, nothing works for me better than LipTone does. For months, I kept on changing lip balms until... tada! I found one today. I actually dropped by the mall to look for other brands I have not used yet since the one I'm currently using is running out. My heart jumped for joy after seeing a few boxes hanging at the lowest portion of the rack. I wanted to buy two or three but payday is still a few days away and I know I can't just pout my lips if I have no money to pay for my jeepney fare in going to work. (LipTone is actually affordable but I bought other stuff too.)

I love this product because aside from having SPF 15, it has also a slight touch of color that enhances your lip's natural pigment. I can use this alone (especially if I'm running late) or finish it with bolder colors to brighten my face. Although I miss using LipTone, I don't feel sorry for trying other brands because I learned something because of it - using lipstick of bolder colors like hotpink and bloody red.

I am really happy for having LipTone again and I'm sure I'll be using it until its very end. Crossing my fingers that they'll not face out this product. :D

Rain Gear

I've been racking my brain for some new ideas to post here but seems like nothing came out of my mind... then I remember I've been suffering from "brain-freeze" since early this morning.

But hearing the raindrops falling on the roof, I remembered the look I created on looklet many days ago.
The look is my favorite outfit especially on a rainy working day - nice pair of jeans, jacket/coat over a shirt and my old sneakers. I won't really care if the rain will fall heavily as long as I'm wearing this super comfy outfit. I don't know if it's weird but I just do not want to brave the city on a rainy day wearing a pair of slippers or other open footwear (The price of having a mother who often talks about Leptospirosis and asks you to wash your feet with soap and water and isopropyl alcohol soon after you arrived home on a rainy day.) Furthermore, this outfit can make it easy for me to commute knowing that it is during days like these when the passengers are the one running after a jeepney... this makes it easy for me to defeat fellow commuters who are wearing high heels, skirts and other less comfortable outfit.

Of course the headband is just an additional bling...

Chasing Chickens

When I went back to the cyber world after the death of my brother, I vowed that I will make a blog post every 16th of the month until his first year anniversary. It's just my simple tribute to the stubborn guy with a good heart. But instead of posting my laments of his passing, I decided to start posting happy memories of him. Though the pain is still fresh, I think it's about time for me to accept the fact that he is gone and start moving forward but will glance back from time to time to the happy memories I had with him.

This one is about one of the things he's passionate about - chickens! When we were young, our mother often takes us with her every time she visits the farm. In there, we would usually play and take a bath in the artesian well during planting time or watch people harvest crops during harvest time. My brother is not one of the kids who would tumble and play in the hay, fly kites in the field or climb trees. Instead, he would often raid our caretaker's chicken coop to check for some chicks he can bring home. Even if the chicken is at the farthest branch of the tallest tree in the area or in the innermost part of the hut, if he decided that he wants that particular creature, he will surely do everything just to get it. He even cries to our mother if he cannot get what he wants.

To spare him from more troubles in catching the chickens, our caretakers decided to keep their best chicks in the coop so that if we'll go there, he'll never have to go through lots of chasing to get what he wanted. I am not sure how many chickens he brought home over the years but one thing I am sure of, he still cares about his chickens wherever he is right now. One of his friends (whom he entrusted some of his chickens) told us that a few days before their supposed cockfight (during his wake), something is weird going on where the chickens are kept. Before they went to sleep, they covered the cage with cloth probably to protect the chicken from cold. But when they woke up the next morning, the cloth is no longer how they left it. It has already been drawn just like the way they’re doing it every morning. It happens two days in a row they said. Another friend also dreamt about him asking about the chicken he gave to that friend.

As of this time, my mother has started to give away or sell his chickens but left a few so as not to totally get rid of his memories. The remaining chickens are cared for by my mother's spinster cousin who has been with us for as long as I can remember. He is even crying when he fed the chicken a few days after my brother's death.

I just hope that there would be cockfighting and TV shows specifically about chickens (he used to watch shows on cable and videos on YouTube) wherever he is right now so that he will be having a blast even in life after death.

(Note: This was supposed to be posted yesterday, 5 months after his death, but I wasn't able to do so because I felt sick.)

Chuckingly Sleek

Last week my cousin went home after almost two years of staying abroad. He was supposed to go home last year but due to unavoidable circumstances, he wasn't able to do so. That made him miss a lot of family celebrations like birthdays, Christmas and such. Going back to the topic, he brought home a pair of new shoes for me. It was his combined present for my last two birthdays - 2009 & 2010.

I asked (persuaded him) for a particular running shoes (even sent him a link to the item) but he does not seem to like it. Instead, he brought home a pair of sneakers from Adidas (Sleek series) and mind you, it has a glittering sparkly canvas upper. At first glance, I was like, "What's with the glitters? It'll really make me look girly!" But of course I just kept my mouth shut because of the fear of offending him and might no longer give me stuff. LOL! I know he just want me to look like a real girl even in trainers. :)

I've worn it for a few days and oh well... I'm starting to love it. It is so light and it provides me with the most comfortable insole cushion next to my Skechers bikers shoes (I am kinda picky when it comes to shoes because of early signs of arthritis. LOL!). Even if I wear it with flimsy socks, it is still comfortable unlike my old Chucks. I have nothing against Converse, I actually love my Chucks but I must say, my feet tend to get painful and develop blisters if I wear it without socks for extended period of time.

I actually feel sad for my Chucks because I'm no longer using it as often as before. I haven't even washed it for probably over a month but still I wouldn't trade it for anything... oh no, not for anything. I wouldn't trade it for a pair of sky-high heels. It has been my companion in many sad and happy moments of my life and I'm sure, it'll still accompany me in many days to come especially now that it's rainy season once again.

To the sparkly shoes, welcome to my crazy world. I have accepted the fact that, shining glittering stuff isn't that bad. You are beautiful in your own way and I look forward to creating happy memories with you. To my Chucks, it's not time for good riddance yet. You are still strong enough to take me wherever I want and I thank you for the countless days of helping me put my best foot forward. And to my cousin, thank you for always being a big brother to us. You just don't know how thankful I am to have you in my life. I may not be the apple of your eyes anymore but I'm sure, I'd still be your little cousin you'd like to kick (but you can't) every time I cause you trouble. I love you big guy!

Colored Metal Frame Wire Fixation

Summer in the Philippines is so over. In fact, it's already rainy season here. But then, my obsession for colored metal frame wire aviators knows no season. Wherever I go (during the day of course), my red metal frame wire aviator goes with me. But since I'm using it like almost everyday since December of last year, the color of the frame has started to fade and chip. I've been looking for a replacement for quite some time now but unfortunately, I can't find anything that is alike or better than my old one, at a reasonable price.

However, while I was window shopping at eBay, I found these cute aviators that I'd really want to own.

They are the cutest thing ever! They may not be as expensive as Ray-Ban but they're just as cute. And besides, I wouldn't want to buy anything so expensive that I know I'll break or lose due to my recklessness. As of now, I'm contemplating whether to buy or not. I haven't bought anything from eBay and the thought of ordering online, having it shipped, paying for the shipping cost (the shipping cost is almost equal to the cost of the item itself), waiting for the delivery and the possible glitches I might come across stresses me out. If only I can find these types at some malls in our area, I'd not hesitate to get one in ALL COLORS. :(

Off to think about this... :D

photo credits: coolthingsforsalehere

Three Years...

Today is my third year anniversary at my current company. Seems like it was only yesterday when I was struggling to finish university, wondering what my life would be after I graduated from college. But here I am now... have been earning (and spending) for exactly three years now.

I can vividly remember the day when I, together with around five of my college classmates, head to the old and small office to pass our resumes and take the exam. After taking the exam and submitting some work (nearly missed the deadline because I was bit of lost that time), I was informed to come for an interview. A few more days after, the HR texted me to attend the orientation because I will be reporting for work the day after I was given orientation. I remember I nearly jumped for joy after reading the text message.

The first day of work was equally memorable. Since I was assigned to work nigh shift, I came there around an hour early (commuting from my town late at night can be difficult). I can exactly remember the black pants, white top with light brown lace blazer and denim pumps I wore. Nervousness, excitement and apprehension are felt all at the same time. Hey, it's my first day at my first ever job.... I have all the right to feel those.

Good thing three of my college classmates have been working there for a few months so I never really have to feel alone. I was assigned to a work station between two guys (which I later found out the other one is gay... kidding!). I was really too shy to talk and make friends with them because I'm sort of aloof and they all seem like they're doing well with their respective tasks.

But fast forward to three years, I'm no longer the shy girl at WS10 (I was transferred to WS7 almost a year ago.). I gained a lot of friends and learned from them; work-related or not. Though I can sometimes be heard ranting about the company, I admit it opened a lot of opportunity for me. I learned a lot of lessons that I'm sure I can use even if I'm no longer part of the company. I'm not sure if I will stay for another year but whatever path life will lead, this company will always have a place in my heart.

Happy 3rd anniversary to me and to my friend, April! (sorry Cay, I just have to use your first name because it sounds cute.. LOL!) The chocolate ice cream was yummy... :)

Fashion Mishap

I have nothing against Lady Gaga neither a big fan of her. I even enjoy listening to her songs at times. But her pictures I came across with a couple of days ago are just freaking hilarious that it cracked me up for a minute or so.

Who in her right mind would wear a ridiculous sky-high platform boots that is sort of connected to her waist/belt when traveling? I understand if she wears eccentric outfit during stage performances, red carpet events and other social gatherings... but in an airport where everyone especially the paps, are watching her every move?
Get rid of your leather cape and ridiculous boots!
Hilarious! It made my boring day really comical...

Photo credit: omg

Shout Out of the Day

People may see me laughing like nothing happened but what they are not aware of is that I still carry the pain of your passing.

*Exactly four months ago today. :(

Dedicated to Motherland

Though it is already 13th of June on my end, I wouldn't mind making a post to celebrate the 112th year of Philippine Independence. I know I haven't been vocal about it but I've always considered myself as patriotic and it'll really make me feel sad if I cannot dedicate an entire post for our dear Motherland.

I posted this song because it never fails to move me and make me feel proud that I am a Filipino. I did have hard time deciding who's version to post (Lea Salonga, Libera or Sarah Geronimo) but I chose Lea Salonga because... because she is Lea Salonga! LOL! I like Libera's version too but I think the rendition is not so Filipino-ish because of their diction. However, I wish that Lea is on stage while singing this, not during the funeral of a former president.

Anyway, here's to a better Philippines! Hoping that the newly elected government officials will do what they're supposed to do to make our country a better Philippines for the Filipinos.

Happy Independence Day everyone! :)

Yeah, You'll be in my Heart

I'm always saying that mushy love song makes me sick but I can't get enough listening to this one. I particularly like the part in which the kid (and later a woman, probably his mother) is running in the woods. So appropriate for the lyrics
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

I loved it since the first time I hear it playing and until now, I'm still loving it. I am not sure why I'm posting this now but maybe... just maybe... the lyrics are sort of what I need to keep me going. (emo mode)

I love the lyrics.
I love the video.
I love the beat.
I love Disney OSTs.
I love Phil Collins!
Ok I love Tarzan too... :D

Waiting for the End

If I were to describe my ideal Saturday, it would be waking up when the sun is already up, eat brunch, and go back to bed again, watch TV or read a good book. However, I've become so quite busy these days that lazing around all day rarely happens. With various group of friends in addition to my family to spend time with and errands to do, I have been missing a lot of activities that I really enjoy doing. One of these activities is reading... I am sure I am not a nerd but I can spend a day sitting under the mango tree with a good book in hand and a bowl of sliced apples nearby (my mother says I can eat a medium-sized apple in one minute.. lol!).

There are lots of books I want to read, mostly fantasy and adventures (as influenced by a friend) but I also find myself looking for inspirational and feel good books. Sadly, due to my always busy schedule, workwise and leisurewise, I've started to mellowed down in reading which I am not happy about.

This day however, my friend sent me a link to one of the chapters of the latest installment of the book that we've been reading since college, the Artemis Fowl Series (Artemis Fowl: The Atlantis Complex out on July this year). It made me excited because I really thought that it's the last book of the series but then my friend said that there is probably another book coming after this one. So it somehow made me disappointed because I've been looking forward to know the ending of the story. I want to find out the mystery behind things, what would become of my most favorite character and if the villain gets the punishment or karma s/he deserves. Completing a series always gives me a sense of fulfillment that probably some non-readers cannot understand.

Another ending that I have been dying to read is the 4th book of Inheritance Cycle. It was supposedly Inheritance Trilogy but was later made into four books for some reasons. There is still no news as to when this will be out but based on news, the author is working on it as of press time.

If there is one thing I hate about reading, it is the long gaps in between books especially if the story is new and the author is still alive. You will have to endure so many months of waiting and thinking of how the story will end. But as what others might say, "it is what makes the book exciting!"

For now I'll try to find another book to spend time with. Series or not, as long as the story is good, makes me think and makes me go back a few pages or perhaps chapters to analyze the current chapter I'm reading, it'll be fine. After all, no book is dull to a book lover like me. :)


I wasn't in the mood to do anything today because
  1. I stayed late to make birthday-salubong while eating Snickers
  2. I'm in a bit of sunggod-mode because my mother is sort of busy with other people (drama much?)
  3. I am not really keen on celebrating my birthday because of the recent death of my one and only sibling. Having fun with the family will only make me sad because it brings back painful memories of his sudden death less than four months ago.
Nevertheless, I cannot stop people from showing their love so we ended up having chicken adobo for lunch (thanks to my father's cousin for the chicken), ice cream and cake in the afternoon and a different chicken menu and valenciana for dinner. Life is good!

I know I'm having roller coaster of emotions for the past few days (maybe because it's my first birthday without my brother) but I am still thankful for all the blessings I received. I never thought that I'd last this long without going crazy because of sadness, grief and guilt (for acting like a spoiled little sister and for not spending more time with him). But then, I'm surrounded with a lot of people who show so much love and support so that makes grieving a little less painful.

Aside from overwhelming greetings through text and facebook posts, I also got a "birthday card" from my beloved nephew. It's not actually a traditional card but drawing of stick figures of me and him in a piece of paper I gave him a few weeks ago. I also got another "card" from another nephew upon learning that his cousin gave me something for my birthday. Those two never fail to make me smile always.

Another gift came from my office buddy - drawing of a girl holding a balloon. I'm not sure if the girl really looks like me but the hair and the shape of the lips can pass (peace! :P). Anyway, I'm still pleased with the drawing because at least he spent time and effort for that (and I envy him for being so good at drawing)... Thanks Leo! :)

This year's birthday maybe not be as fun as last year but as long as I'm with the people I love most and knowing that many relatives and friends remember me, it's more than enough.

Shout Out of the Day

Sometimes I wish I can let people see a certain part of my mind so that I’ll never have trouble explaining what I want, what I feel and why I’m doing certain things.

My Happiness

I'll be celebrating my 24th birthday in the next few days so I'm thinking of giving myself tribute in the form of blog posts about myself. My first birthday-related post is about happiness.

I'm a naturally happy person but sad to say, many people often label me as snob, bitchy and intimidating. Well maybe if they only know what makes me happy, they'll not think of me as such. That explains why I'm enumerating here the things that can really paint a smile on my face...
  • Being with my family and knowing that they are all okay.
  • Waking up in the morning without having to worry that I'll be late for work.
  • Talking (or listening to them talk) to my naughty and inquisitive nephews and nieces.
  • My mother's tasty dishes like estofado, creamy chicken macaroni soup, valenciana and a lot more. (might make a separate post about it)
  • Looking at old photographs.
  • Hanging out with my hilarious friends.
  • Getting positive feedbacks from my boss.
  • Eating fruits - apple, guyabano, pineapple and more. I love fruits!
  • Biking, running... being sweaty!
  • Long night walks
  • Nature-tripping
  • Newly changed bed sheet, pillow cases and blanket.
  • The smell of newly trimmed grass.
  • The smell of rice plants being harvested.
  • Good books
  • Not slacking
  • Clean toenails
  • Shoes with super comfortable insoles (Good for me because I self-diagnosed me with plantar fasciitis) :P
  • Carpeted floor (so that I can walk barefoot)
  • My social networking accounts and this blog.
  • Gummy candies
  • Mirrors
  • Sunnies
Pretty lame list but what can I do? Those things are making me happy. As what we, Filipinos, say, "mababaw ang kaligayahan".

Great Week-ender

I love Fridays! I always feel ecstatic and restless every time this day comes. Even if it is still a working day (unless otherwise declared by the government or the company), it is my favorite because for me, it signifies a better tomorrow, literally. Who doesn't love weekends by the way? In addition, Friday also gives me the opportunity to wake up a bit late especially if I wasn't late in going to work from Monday to Thursday (three lates in a week is subject for investigation and sanction in our company). Unlike other working days, I can sleep as late as I can during Friday nights and can wake up as late as I can too the next day.

And what is better way to end the day than some positive remarks from your boss? This skype conversation of me and my client really made my day. I find these conversations really uplifting and motivating. It feels good to have a boss who treats you not just as someone on his payroll but also a friend... a daughter.

This weekend is gonna be busy for me because it is the feast day of Sta. Rita de Cascia, one of my mom's favorite saints and also the patron saint of the area where I grew up so definitely I'll be spending the day there. It is also my niece 3rd birthday so I might join her party as well. Sunday is bonding time with my friends.

Now I need to finish some tasks before finally saying, "Happy Friday everyone!"

I believe

This was sent by a client through email and I'm kind of "can relate" that is why I'm posting it here:

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends, if we understand that friends change.

I Believe....
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe....
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe....
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe....
That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe....
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe....
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe....
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe....
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself..

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe....
Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe....
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.